Life with diabetes is so hard sometimes. The past couple of weeks have been especially hard for me.
I'm stuck in the winter doldrums. Cabin fever has settled in as we continue to have plowable snow each and every week. With this I'm finding myself battling some boredom and having the urge to nibble. Of course, I don't want the foods I should be eating either. On top of that, I've been really bored with the low carb life I've been initiated in to.
This week I sort of hit a low. I had three days where my blood sugar reading was near 200. It made my blood run cold. I long for my old favorites but am scared about what diabetes will do to me if I don't keep it under my thumb.
The fear has to win this time.
I have to make low carb my lifestyle weather I like it or not. I just have to. There is no other choice as I see it. At least, not one that I can live with. And, I do mean live. I won't let diabetes have anymore of me than my toe.
My weight has been creeping back up. I know it has to be from the nibbling and too many carbs. I just want to cry. It makes me feel like such a failure. I've got to get over this feeling.
All this worrying about everything doesn't help anything at all.
Surely spring will break soon. I long for spring fever. I've already got my walking route planned. The weather just has to cooperate. I feel like the walking will refresh me within and without. I crave some fresh air.
I'm going to call this my February slump. With the turning of the calendar page, I'm going to March back toward victory.
I hope you'll join me along my journey.
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