Don't you wish you could have a diabetic free day?

Sometimes I wish I could wake up to a diabetic free day where I could just be normal again.  I wouldn't have to worry so much about what I ate and I could relax.  My whole day would not have to be planned around diabetes.

I get a little overwhelmed with it sometimes.  There's the finger sticking, eating on a schedule, calculating carbs, and working in exercise.  When you throw in the rest of the problems life has to offer, it can be bonkers.

Like it or not, diabetes is going to define me for the rest of my life.  Even if I do manange to lose weight and get off of the medicine, all I will have to do is look down and see where my toe once was to be reminded of why I must be diligent.

The doctors tell me that I am uncommon in how fast I lost my toe.  That doesn't give me much solace though.  I am now a germaphobe who is very very picky about her feet.  I think I just might die on the spot if I ever get another staph infection.  The panic will send me over the edge.

When life happens on top of this, and it does, it makes me dig for strength.  I'm not always sure there is enough to sustain me.  Somehow I manage to dig a little deeper and muddle through.

I haven't felt very well the past couple of days.  My blood sugar has been hovering in the 80's and I'm thinking that is just a little low for me.  I feel off balance and a little dizzy when I move too fast.  I'm kind of sluggish. I'm also a little nauseous. I'm sure that the low point is different for everyone.  Lord knows that diabetes is not an exact science because it affects each of us differently. As long as my numbers are within my range, I'm not going to complain too loudly though.

Someone told me that I need to adjust to my new "normal".  I guess I am, but I do it a little bit grudgingly some days.

Don't you wish you could have a diabetic free day?

Comments

[Mimi]

You know, I do, Sweet, but I don't spend a whole lot of time thinking about it. If I dwelled on it too much, it would just depress me, and sabotage my efforts to get my blood sugar under control.

You have blood sugar numbers in the 80's? How do you get it so low? Mine is always highest first thing in the morning.

BTW, if you're wondering if this is the Mimi you know, it is. :)

[The Sweet Diabetic]

Hi, Mimi

I'm glad you came by. :-)

I probably do obsess about things a bit too much. My doctor has told me more than once to try and relax about it. It's hard for me though. My nature is to worry if I don't stay on top of it. It's not always in the 80's. I fall off the carb wagon every now and then and it goes up. It usually comes back down though when I straighten up and fly right.

I suspected it was you. I'm thrilled to have you here.

The Sweet Diabetic

[Woman]

Lordy YES! A whole 24 hours without thinking about how I feel. How I should feel. How I want to feel! Not to start my day with testing, yes,it STILL hurts. Not to think of every bite I take, weighing desire for food against my desire for life. Not to walk because I have to, but because I want to. Not to feel it is never enough, I am never perfect enough. 24 hours without pain in my feet and legs. A day to celebrate my body and not to question it. And maybe, just maybe, a day to enjoy without effort, without guilt.
Yes. That would be a quite a day.
And yet. I do enjoy each day and I realize, so intensely, how precious every day is. I am a woman of passion and having diabetes magnifies that. For that I am grateful.

[The Sweet Diabetic]

Woman,
I completely identify with what you are saying. I've been on this journey for a few months and it is all consuming. They tell me it gets easier. I'm not so confident of that. I know I need to stay on top of it all times. Like you, I want a long happy life.

The Sweet Diabetic

[woman]

CW~ Good. Sweet sisters!
Ah, but it makes us strong. And today? Today was a good day. I did what I needed to do, didn't do what I shouldn't and didn't spend too much time thinking about the disease. Course it's the end of the school year and I am too busy to breathe, that might be the reason! I do want a long happy life. Full of adventure and passion. Not too much to ask, is it?
Hope your day was good too.
Woman

[The Sweet Diabetic]

Woman,

Today wasn't bad for me. I started out with a blood sugar reading of 98. That set a good tone for the day. Diabetic wise the day ran smoothly. I managed to be productive.

A long, happy, adventurous, passionate life is certainly not too much to ask for.

Be well.

The Sweet Diabetic