There was good news and some bad news at the endocrinologist...

My appointment with my endocrinologist was this past Wednesday.  This is how it went down.

I was nervous, but that is just how I am any time I have to go to any doctor.

 

She was impressed with my a1c of 5.9. There were really no issues about my blood sugar in general.

 

I had gained five pounds. She wasn’t happy about that. I must say it makes me feel dreadful about myself. I really do try, but I seem to fail more than not. I told her how I am an emotional eater. The more anxious I get, the more I want to eat. I hate myself for it and that doesn’t help anything.

 

We discussed some anxiety medication, but I decided against it because of the side affects and the cost. I’m hoping that being able to walk more with the nicer weather will help.

 

My blood pressure was really high there in the office. Of course, that meant more medication for that. It feels like defeat to me anytime I need more medication. I know that weight loss would do wonders for me if I could just succeed at it.

 

She wanted to know what was stressing me out. I told her it was my relationships and money mainly. Things that affect us all really are what I seem to internalize and have a hard time letting go of.

 

I promised to exercise more and maybe to try some meditation.

 

Sometimes I feel so much pressure. It’s hard to make everything perfect.

 

She looked at my feet and said they looked great. She tested the feeling in them and was amazed at how much feeling I still have where my toe was taken off. All of that was good. No worries there.

 

We talked about cholesterol. Mine is good, but it is something I have to keep working at to keep low.

 

I told her about this blog and she said she was proud of me. She said there aren’t enough supportive things out there for diabetics. She thought I was doing a great thing and even said she would recommend it to her patients. I felt very honored by that.

 

Before I left, I had to have a urine test. I was on my way out the door when the nurse called me back in. Let me tell you that makes your blood run cold. My endocrinologist came back in and told me that my protein in my urine was “abnormal”.

 

Many things ran through my mind. Kidney failure was my big panic. I made the assumption of the test just testing my kidneys. In reality, it was the result of my blood pressure remaining too high. She increased my medicine more than what she had originally thought she would because of it. It was hard to stay composed because it really scared me.

 

I finally asked if this medication would reverse this abnormality or if I was going to need to be worrying about this. She assured me that it would be corrected with medication. I have to have a follow up urine test in July to see how I’m doing.

 

I guess I should have added my health to my list of things that cause me anxiety.

 

All in all, she spent about 45 minutes with me. I felt like she was very thorough. I don’t have to have the blood work again for 8 months because I’m doing so well with my sugars and cholesterol. I’ll keep doing my health journal and let her know if I start to go haywire between now and then.

 

The good outweighed the bad, but I wish it had all been good.

 

Thanks for reading.