After my left big toe amputation I became afraid to shave my legs and trim my toenails. Let me tell you why.
First of all, the toe amputation was a real shock when it happened. I had a blister from walking in the wrong kind of shoes that developed a rapid moving staph infection. I was diagnosed with diabetes when I went to the emergency room with a big red swollen angry looking toe and numbness in my foot.
From diabetes diagnosis to toe amputation was exactly one week. It was a lot for my mind and body to process.
As my healing process began, I became increasingly afraid of trimming my toenails and shaving my legs. I was terrified of nicking my legs with a razor and getting another infection. I was afraid of clipping my toe nails and getting that wrong, thus causing more problems. I had been reading all the literature given to me in the hospital and it frankly paralyzed me with fear.
Toe amputation for a diabetic is nothing to sneeze at. It's a very real complication. In my case, the staph infection flared the diabetes and the high blood sugar fed the staph infection. A week of intravenous antibiotics was not doing anything to slow it down. Toe amputation was really my only choice.
This happened to me in August of 2007. I still say very sincere prayers when I shave my legs and trim my toenails. I'm mindful to be careful. I also tell myself that I've healed from much worse than a little nick from shaving my legs or something from the rough edge of a toenail.
The fear has lessened over time, but it is still there. Many times I've told myself to feel the fear and do it anyway. I have to live my life. I will not live with Sasquatch legs or hooves for toenails. You know?
My point is that if you go through a diabetes related toe amputation, it's ok to be afraid for a little while afterwords. You just can't let you keep from moving on. As for me, I vow to have healthy pretty toes from now on even if there are only nine of them. My legs will be soft and smooth too. As a friend of mine likes to say, I'll put my big girl panties on and deal with it.
Thanks for reading.