Summer
is here once again and I find myself longing to wear all the cute little
sandals with reckless abandon for what they might do to my feet. Those days are gone though. Since the amputation of my big toe, I have
not worn sandals in public.
I
did splurge on a pair of really soft leather open toed sandals that I’ve been
wearing in the house. They look ok, but
I’m not quite sure what my reaction would be if someone noticed that my big toe
isn’t there.
I
know I speak of Crocs all the time, but I really do love them and I have found
that they have some closed toe sandals that are quite comfortable for my needs. They are called the Malindi.
Last
summer I headed the advice of everything I read and never ever went without
socks. This year I am a bit braver. I will wear the Crocs Malindi without socks.
That
being said, I do have excellent feeling in my feet. I can feel it if something gets kicked up
into my shoes.
I
feel a little more normal being able to go without the socks. My feet absolutely burn up in the summer with
them on. I made the decision to dare to
live.
It
still feels surreal sometimes when I look down at my feet and see that my big
toe is gone. It’s like a bad dream that
I will never wake up from.
Fear
still wells up in me sometimes. For
example, I dropped a shampoo bottle on my “good” big toe and the toenail has
turned black and blue. It’s quite a
normal thing to have happen. But, I
confess that I did freak out a bit when it first starting it’s color change.
Once
you have experienced a diabetic complication such as a toe amputation, you don’t
soon forget it.
I
am very thankful that Crocs makes the little closed toe sandals called Malindi. Without them, I would be a little more depressed
than the situation already makes me.
I
have the Malindi is a couple of different colors including the silver that it
is pictured above.
If
you like the beach Crocs, I’m betting you’ll love these too.
